The Challenge of My Life Is Here
OH. Damn. I DON'T have two weeks to get ready for this specific amazing challenge. It starts next MONDAY. Ouch. I heard that and felt a bubble of panic surface. Then…it settled. I'm ready for this.
But…at the same time I'm being asked to step up in a very specific way in the BKF. And it triggers old anxieties.
And at the same time, Jason is in Endgame in terms of his childhood. Just the step of learning to focus his energy, heart and mind to create goods and services he can exchange with the community for sufficient resources. Sufficient to what? To attract a mate he can relish and respect. That means he needs the resources to raise and protect a family EVEN IF THEY DON'T WANT KIDS.
To help him there, I need one more push, rise one more level of energetic clarity, so that I can say "follow me."
There is a knot of fear here. Why? Because my ego cannot survive this fire. To succeed at ALL THREE SIMULTANEOUSLY, I must actually BE that guy. I have to rise up another level. My current self-image is pretty healthy, but this, balancing all three, is one of the greatest challenges of my life.
Fear. Fear of change, and ego-death. Of stepping into an energetic space that represents everything I've ever wanted in life. Adult version.
Untie this "knot" and I am through the door.
What strategies and tactics should I use? Let me focus on one of them every day. I'm gonna need ALL my skills online, I kid you not. Here are the first that come to mind. I'll examine all of them, in turn.
M.A.G.I.C.
Morning Ritual
HP6
Glitter
Spider Technique
Ancient Child
Helix
Lifewriting (child, adult, Eulogy)
First, M.A.G.I.C. and Morning Ritual
This five-part formula is extracted from THE SCIENCE OF GETTING RICH by Wallace D. Wattles. It says that:
Model X Action X Gratitude X Intention X Conviction = Results
Give yourself a score from 0-9 in each. And make damned sure that you have no "0" because that will break the chain.
Do I have a clear MAP of what is needed in these three arenas? Perhaps not. But I DO have models for each. Models of writing, martial arts, parenting a young warrior. If I don't know quite what is coming, THEY have the skills and attitudes to win, no matter what. "The thought of losing does not exist in my fighting science" Steve Muhammad says. "I will find a way, or make one." I can live with that. I'll give myself a "3" today.
Action. What ACTION do I need to take? Daily meditation, journaling, writing, researching, connecting with my family, working out. Every day. Raising my energy (exercise and MA), and increasing sensitivity to the energy I have (Chi Gong and Tai Chi). I'm pretty solid here. Give myself a "7"
Gratitude. Here the rubber meets the road. GRATITUDE is an antidote for fear and anxiety. So the more GRATEFUL I am for my life, and these opportunities, the more the fear is transmuted into excitement.
Intention. That's the goals. I need to adjust time-lines, clarify my destination. Can I see, touch, smell, and taste it? How do I visualize success. Can I see the road between my current position and that last step (there are levels beyond, of course, but its useful to have a very specific image in mind and heart)
Courage and Conviction. This is also FAITH. Faith is another cure for fear. In the face of Faith, fear is just a measure of how much energy your psyche is making available…for action. And fear that drives proper action changes your life.
I need to integrate ALL of this into my Morning Ritual. This morning it was:
Meditate sitting up in bed
1st Tibetan, spinning. I imagined that I was a drill, boring down to an underground river of energy.
Tai Chi/Incantations. Firedance. Affirmations in motion. Statements of general confidence in expansion, general gratitude for divine grace. Thanks for my family. My business partners. My mentors…SPECIFICALLY mentioning and visualizing the mentors who are my best choice to help me through this: Larry Niven, Steve Muhammad, Dawn Callan, and Octavia Butler. William Shakespeare waiting in the wings. More gratitude for my blessings (just for giggles, all of them start with the letter "F": family, fitness, fiction, finance, etc.). Then a final burst of confidence, connected to the High Performance Habits: "All the __ I need is within me now" (clarity, energy, urgency, productivity, influence, and courage)
That was my morning ritual. I'd give myself a "6" on it today. I need to get that to an "8". But here's the trick: all I need to do is avoid getting a "0", and I'll improve in amplitude and congruence at a rate of at least 1% per week. I want a nice "margin of error" here for stress handling…so I am asking my unconscious mind to show me what I need to do to raise by 1% per DAY.
That'll do, pig. That'll do.
I'll have more tomorrow. This…is going to be fascinating.
Namaste
Steve
